Jul 22 / Uyen

Regret

As soon as I open the curtain and the sun stares right at me, I regret

I regret that I have come out last night after I got your phone call

I regret for what I was feeling for the past 7 months

I blame myself for being stupid and childish

I can not image seeing myself like that, I become stronger after 2 years and there are some good things come along in term of business but I see myself changing, I change for some pain that caused me months and still can not get over it

I blame myself for being slow of the moving on process

I blame myself for making such clumsy decision for the last week

I could not ever image our last meeting became that ugly with insulting and all of the bad argument

I lost my self respect

As I always say, I live and I learn, but this experience is way too expensive

I just want to go to bed and dont even wake up the next day

I just want to run away from reality and dont pick up any phone calls or any conversation of someone who cares about me

This time, I know it is not simple as “sh*t happens!?!” anymore

I am soo regret and this is sooo over!!!!

I will have to read this blog every single day and learn!!!!

Jul 20 / Uyen

The end and the begining

Once the doctor confirms that there is a baby inside of you, you start planing

Day by day, you think about what is the name of the baby, what the baby would look like, which school you will send them to, what if the baby is a boy, and what if the baby is a girl, what they will do when they grow up

Running a business is like having a baby: you plan for it a lot, you put  a lot of effort and you are hoping the best for it

Problem comes, you find a way to get through it, you fight for it and you will be happy to see it is moving forward

There are thousand of million problems on every single day when you run a business. It can lead to either good or bad thing

And just like a baby, it is not easy to let it go.

I am quick and active, bad side is that I sometime make quick and wrong decision.

I have aware of my problem and since, it took me quite a long time to make the final decision.

I chosen to make my own decision, I did not talk or discuss with anyone about what I want

It was a long week, and it was a week with full of thinking

I dont think there is any of my decision is as hard to make as this one.

I think about me, about my partner, the partnership, the friendship, the new relationship

For the last 6 months, sometime I feel like I know nothing, it was a really strange feeling, it was a mix of the pain, the happiness, the laugh, the tear, the lost and the wake up call

I decide to drop it, to let it go. I see myself belong to another place.

“All good things come to an end”, I hope I have made a good end.

Jul 5 / Uyen

Sunday evening

There are some fact that I have known that it could happen sooner or later
But then, when I really got it confirmed, it still shock me badly.
I was feeling like a zombie on my way home
I was thinking that I would not let you hurt me again
Well, i know that only me can help myself out of this mess
I just need to sort myself out to learn what i really want.

Jun 30 / Uyen

Midnight

11:45 PM, on my way home, it is raining and cold

There is one old woman sitting on the wheel chair, she is hungry and so is her daughter, they only have a tiny thin rain coat to cover from the cold weather

There is some moments in life that I can just give and dont expect to get anything back

There is some moments in life when I dont want to think for myself

There is some moments in life when I dont cry for me.

There is something can be small tiny from your pocket but can keep some people get over the cold night sleeping outside

I wonder how many poor people out there in the rain and still hungry

Jun 21 / Uyen

Quote

1. When people tells you the truth and you deny it angrily, then what they say is true

2. Looking what people do in their private life to figure out their behavior in work and vice versa

3. Everything has 2 sides, bad and good, nothing is extreme

4. Dont trust and give power to an idiot

5. Only you can take care of yourself, don’t rely on anyone

6. Be good first, then you can help people to be better.

7. Its hard to be a good boss and a good friend at the same time

8. When things come to worst, then it will be only better

9. Having everything means having nothing

10. Good luck can not follow you forever

11. Good friends are found when you are in bad situation

12. A civil denial is better than a rude grant

13. You can not convince someone/something is not good to one until they experienced by themselves

14. What goes around, come around

15. You dont let whoever you feed/pay to know that you are broke.

16. Big risk, big reward

17. A problem can not just become big itself, there was a original starter.

18. Be stable yourself, then get other things stable.

19. Quick cash never last long

20. Nothing for free

21. When you get lost, follow your instinct

22. When you can’t make decision, you are a staff.

23. Bad thing to one is always good thing to another

24. Old thing has gone meaning new things are on the way

25. It takes both sides to work in a relationship, there will no success if one is keep pulling and one keep pushing

26. It is your luck to be born with enough body’s parts, you have to earn your beauty

27. Don’t compare when people tell you how good they are, be happy for them

28. Seeing is believing

29. Experience is the best teacher

30. The winner is the one who has more confident

31. Your friend is not other’s friend

32. Don’t proud when you have many good ideas, be proud when you really get one done

33. In the kingdom of the blind, the one-eyed man is king

34. Don’t live for today, there is history and future

35. You don’t need to be a good chef to open a good restaurant

36. Business is about money and profit

37. The key to failure is trying to please everybody

38. Some gets success in one industry does not mean everyone can.

39. Hiring from the problem is one way to show your irresponsible.

40. Telling and giving problems are two different things.

Jun 21 / Uyen

First time

1997, first time pass the test for High school

2000, first time got in university

2005, first time had a job

2008, first time joined a meeting for Board of Director of a company

2008, first time got a company license

2010, first time wanted to go to bed at 4 pm so the better tomorrow comes faster

Jun 19 / Uyen

Sunday

Một tuần lễ bệnh nằm nhà

Càng mệt mỏi

Càng thêm buồn

Đến ngày hôm qua, chợt nhận ra mình không còn hy vọng nào

Một hy vọng làm mình vui vẻ trong 3 tháng nay, cũng đã hoàn toàn biến mất

Khi bệnh, mình thấy buồn, thấy chán, thấy cô đơn

Mong rằng ngày mai sẽ có nhiều tin tốt từ công việc để làm mình vui lên

Jun 16 / Uyen

Chè

Che (Sweet soup) is my favourite dessert. In Vietnam, chè is very popular for dessert. In general, chè is quite similar at any parts of Vietnam, but surely there are some specific chè from different part, we can call chè from the North, the center and the South.

As chè is the dessert for The King and his family, as a luxury dessert at old time, so the founder of chè is from Huế, the center.

With my little knowledge, I can only remember some chè below:

Chè from the North

As I dont know much about chè in the North, but there is one chè that I know you can only find in Ha Noi, its name “Sữa chua nếp cẩm” the meaning is “Sticky rice with Yogurt”

Sua chua nep cam

Chè from the center

As they said, Hue is the cradle of chè. Here are some chè from Huế but it is famous and you can find it everywhere in Vietnam

Chè kê

Chè kê

Chè trôi nước

Che troi nuoc

Chè sen – Lotus chè

Che sen

Chè khoai môn – Taro chè

Che khoai mon

Chè đậu trắng – White bean chè

Che dau trang

Chè chuối – Banana chè

Chè chuối

Chè bột bán

Chè bột bán

Chè bắp – Corn chè

Che bắp

Chè táo xọn

che-tao-xon-180x180 Chè

As we can see, chè from the Center mostly goes with Sticky coconut juice and no ice

Chè from the South

Chè from the South has a specific factor is that it is very sweet and normally goes with ice

Sương sa hột lựu – Jelly with bean, coconut juice and ice

Suong sa hot luu

Chè đậu – Bean chè, it can be green bean, black bean or red bean

Che dau

Chè thưng, quite sweet one, it has another name is chè bà ba, it means chè from Ms Three.

Che thưng

Chè 3 màu – 3 colors chè

Che 3 màu

In Saigon, we can find almost any chè from any part of Vietnam, however, I have not found Sticky rice with Yogurt in Saigon yet, but today, I finally found how to get it (not to make it) from Saigon

Step 1

Go to Cao Thắng street corner, where you can find a few cart of sticky rice (at night time)

Xoi Cao Thang

and look for the sticky rice name Nếp than, the color is purple.Xoi nep than

You should ask for the sticky rice and some “nước cốt dừa”, the sticky coconut juice, no smashed green bean, no coconut rice, no sugar, no nothing, just nếp than and the sticky coconut juice.

Step 2

Buy plaint yogurt

Sua chua Vinamilk

Step 3

Buy ice

Da Bao

Mix all of them together, you finally bring Ha Noi to Sai gonSua chua nep cam final

Jun 13 / Uyen

Confession

Sex and the city 2 – Carrie and Mr Big

She wants to go out

He is tired and just wants to stay in, plus the stock market went down 10 points is giving him a headache.

She is upset about it and she does not understand for him

So she forces him to go with her, and he finally agrees.

He is tired at the event. After she has fun with her friends, she looks for him and she finds him having a good conversation with a hot woman. She gets jealous.

They argue.

She decides to have 2 days separate from him in order to “finish her book”

After 2 days without being with each other, they missed each other, the argument has gone and they have great time again.

He asks her to consider the idea of to have 2 days off every week so they can always have great time after 2 days off. She disagrees and they argue again.

I think:

Carrie is really childish, selfish and a bit controlling.

Wait a moment, that is me when I am in a relationship.

I wanted my boyfriend to go out with me and my friends

I wanted to have my “me” time, but if my boyfriends wanted to have his free time alone, I would get freak out, I thought “well, by the time I get free time, you also have your free time already”. Apparently, my thought was absolutely wrong.

Thank all the ex boyfriends for nice compliments about me as the best girlfriend that you have had,  how sweet, caring, funny, smart and warm person I am, but now I am here, admit that I also have some really bad attitude. So, sorry ex boyfriends.

Jun 10 / Uyen

The ugly truth

Just finished talking on the phone at midnight, i am happy for my little friend, she is much happier than the time her ex left her for the unreasonable reason “we are not meant to be”. I look at him now and thinking “boy, you have made the biggest mistake ever”.
I think about my friend, something she said “just have fun at work” might make her lose her boyfriend. I know the boy is hard to take sometimes but at the end, he is good for you, my friend. And I dont want you to regret someday.
I look at the box on my desk fullfil with nice words and caring.
Is that true that love is not all about feeling?
Is that true that sometimes love has to be selfish?
Is that true that my life would be better if i love less by heart and put a bit of my head?
Is that true that i am letting chances pass by?
Is that true that sometimes you should not think too much about future?
Is that true that i am being too difficult?
Is that true that I am letting my future run by and maybe someday i ll be here alone?
Is that true that I am lucky to have this many people cares about me and i dont appreciate it?
I promise myself to be a nicer person from this moment and i ll take chances.

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