Change

It is hard to share my thought with anyone recently, its not like none there to listen, it is more about me dont want to talk or share it with anyone

My mind about relationship, friendship and family has changed a lot

I do look at my family in another way, better way

I do look at my relationship in another way, I am happy

I look at  my friendship in another way, there are things I feel really annoyed when I was around my friends but I chose not to say a word. It is because I know that whatever I say will not lead to a good result so I decide to just ignore it

So here, I find myself being alone, but somehow, I dont feel sad, there are moments in life where things change and I dont know what to do about it except let it be, I believe there are good moments and bad moments, when the bad moment comes,  just walk away, take a nap, things will be alright when I wake up

I do see myself sharing my thought with Natasha who I have not ever met in real life, I can tell her everything without any judgement from her (well, at least I dont know about it)

I realized that I dont have things in common with An or Becky when we talk about relationship where they believe in marriage for this age and I dont. I am not upset, it is just like you are hanging out with people who has kids and you have no ideas what they talk about when they mentions about raising-a-kid’s problem.

They has passed the stage where they want to be free, to be alone and now they want a family. I have never had any living alone time for me to feel that I am done with it. I find that might be the difference

I know what I want, I know what people want, and it is totally different things what we want in our life at this stage, and I am ok with it.

After the trip to Sweden, after keeping PWI survive for 2 years, I realized that we, human, can do a lot of thing. I am setting up new goal, bigger, much bigger than just traveling and having fun.

This year I will have to do sth big to make real money and then I can get the freedom I want. A friend of mine once said that he believed I could do something big as long as I dont have kids before 35s. I cant picture me as a mother anytime soon but I can see myself grow up with our business.

My relationship is going well and its a good base for me to grow with our business.