Regret

As soon as I open the curtain and the sun stares right at me, I regret

I regret that I have come out last night after I got your phone call

I regret for what I was feeling for the past 7 months

I blame myself for being stupid and childish

I can not image seeing myself like that, I become stronger after 2 years and there are some good things come along in term of business but I see myself changing, I change for some pain that caused me months and still can not get over it

I blame myself for being slow of the moving on process

I blame myself for making such clumsy decision for the last week

I could not ever image our last meeting became that ugly with insulting and all of the bad argument

I lost my self respect

As I always say, I live and I learn, but this experience is way too expensive

I just want to go to bed and dont even wake up the next day

I just want to run away from reality and dont pick up any phone calls or any conversation of someone who cares about me

This time, I know it is not simple as “sh*t happens!?!” anymore

I am soo regret and this is sooo over!!!!

I will have to read this blog every single day and learn!!!!