The ugly truth

Just finished talking on the phone at midnight, i am happy for my little friend, she is much happier than the time her ex left her for the unreasonable reason “we are not meant to be”. I look at him now and thinking “boy, you have made the biggest mistake ever”.
I think about my friend, something she said “just have fun at work” might make her lose her boyfriend. I know the boy is hard to take sometimes but at the end, he is good for you, my friend. And I dont want you to regret someday.
I look at the box on my desk fullfil with nice words and caring.
Is that true that love is not all about feeling?
Is that true that sometimes love has to be selfish?
Is that true that my life would be better if i love less by heart and put a bit of my head?
Is that true that i am letting chances pass by?
Is that true that sometimes you should not think too much about future?
Is that true that i am being too difficult?
Is that true that I am letting my future run by and maybe someday i ll be here alone?
Is that true that I am lucky to have this many people cares about me and i dont appreciate it?
I promise myself to be a nicer person from this moment and i ll take chances.